12-31-12

It is the final day of 2012. I still haven’t lost any additional weight, but I have not gained anything through the entire holiday season. This tells me something: I have grasped the concept. In the New Year I will join the millions of others endeavoring to lose weight and I will continue to succeed. I need the holiday food availability to cease. ;-) Yeah, I ate my fair share of goodies.

I don’t know about the rest of you, but 2012 was emotionally draining for me. I felt more discouraged than I ever have in the past. I struggled with choosing to continue friendships for the sake of nostalgia or to stop for the sake of my personal well-being. I started making some serious decisions about purging emotional and physical baggage. I worried deeply over the emotional welfare of those closest to me and watched as they worked through one of the most difficult times for each of them. This year also brought tremendous gifts to those around me and, on occasion, their joy struck deep sadness in me for things lost. I discovered a profound emptiness inside…and I wonder if that isn’t the void I have been trying to fill with food.
It seems like I need to identify that which makes me feel successful personally. Sure, I participate in making organizations and other people successful in achieving goals, but what are mine? What, exactly, would make me feel as though I had achieved something personally satisfying? I hope 2013 will be a time when I am able to see more clearly choices that are fulfilling.

I am wishing love, joy, and peace to all reading my blog, but especially to my son and husband. I hope we are all able to make our mark this year.

Happy New Year. Here's a pretty tree in a parking lot for your viewing pleasure...